Friday, February 24, 2012

I got this.

What a week.  Three exams and the ever continuing drama... well continued.  But, I'm pleased to say I'm in a good place.  Yes, I bombed an exam, but I at least think I did well on my one this morning, and yes, the drama is getting ridiculous, but I think this may actually almost be the end of it.  I can see the light at the end of the tunnel!

I also have my Vet School at VMRCVM this upcoming Friday and I'm surprisingly excited.  Terrified, of course, but I'm in a strange way really looking forward to it.  I feel like interviews play toward my strengths and hopefully my passion and excitement for veterinary medicine can shine through.  It's also comforting to know, that within the next three weeks, no matter what happens, I will know what I am doing next year with my life.  I've been waiting since October 1st when I submitted my application to hear that news.  I'm praying my dreams will come true and I'll get the opportunity I've always dreamed of and get to go, but I also realize at this point I just need to be myself, and let go and trust God that I will end up where I'm meant to be.

I have this overwhelming sense of peace lately with things.  I've made a lot of mistakes lately, but they all brought me to where I am today.  Every decision I made taught me something, about myself, about other people, about who I want to be.  I wouldn't take anything back.  Life is about taking chances.  Risks can bring rewards.

The opposite of faith isn't doubt, it's fear.

Also, Happy Lent!  It seems odd to say but this is always beautiful season in my eyes.  It's an opportunity to cleanse ourselves and make a fresh start.

As Fr. John said, "We all need the season of Lent, none of us are such saints that we go to bed at night and glow."

Paz y bein.

Monday, February 13, 2012

Cat and Mouse

Following up on my previous post:

Today I had an interesting discussion with my lunch cohort.  I eat with the same 4 gentlemen every Monday, Wednesday and Friday.  Each of these young men is very different than the others and tends to present a unique perspective on life.  Some one brought up Valentine's day (typical) and one of them instantly had the "I hate Valentine's day" response.  The other interjected today was the best day to pick up women, since they'd all be desperate to not spend tomorrow alone.  Another one talked about how he was going out to dinner tonight with his best female friend (no one likes to be alone right?).  And the last one reminisced on old girlfriends he had.

What an odd spectrum.

We then had a chat about men chasing woman.  My one friend talked about how women need to be straight forward with guys, especially if we weren't into them.  He said that if a guy finds a girl he wants, he won't let it go unless he is convinced that girl is completely 100% not into him, and even then he might still try.  It's like a game of cat and mouse, he loved the chase.  It was fun and exciting.

Being the stubborn girl I am, I slightly objected and said that not every guy would ALWAYS be quite that aggressive to get the girl he wants.  Sometimes guys like you but are just shy and not as forward.  He instantly shot me down.  Crash and burn style.  He said no.  If a guys really likes or really wants a girl.  He will always pursue them.  Maybe not as directly as some others.  But he will DEFINITELY try.

Joy, now I just feel like half the guys in my life I may have slightly liked and thought felt the same way were just not that into me.  I never want to be 'that' girl who throws herself at men.  I want to be pursued just like everyone else.  Time to be patient and wait for the right person instead of being ok with the first person who pays attention.  Never settle <3

Saturday, February 11, 2012

He's Just Not That Into You

I LOVE this book.  So true.  It does a great job of giving the common over thinking woman a kick in the butt and a huge confidence boost.  I love it.

It works too.  Ladies, we deserve respect.  We also need to be respectful ourselves as well.

I tested out one of his points the other day dt.  I was leaving and the gentleman I was talking to said, "hey do you want my number?  You can text me later if you want to hang out."

My HJNTIY response, "Um, well you can have my number and text me if you'd like to hang out later."

Him: "Ohh, sorry, yea my phone is actually dead."
Me: "Well then so are your chances at getting my number, but have a lovely rest of your evening!"

I smiled politely and turned and walked away.  As the book so kindly states, a man shouldn't make a woman he's interested in do his dirty work.  If he is, he's just not that into you!

As I was walking away across the bar to leave he pushed through people and ran after me.  Then said, "Hey, I'm sorry (pulled out his fully functioning phone), Can I PLEASE get your number?"

After feeling incredibly victorious, I obliged and gave the guy my number (I did not get his on purpose) and I walked away.  Not only did he talk to me later that night (I decided not to meet up with him), he continued to try to talk to me the day after and so on.  We're friends now, and it's nice to know that he actually put some effort into trying to get to know me, and I never felt like I was throwing myself at him.  What a great confidence builder!

Ladies, I'm simply sharing this to help prove a point.  You. are. beautiful.  And you deserve to be pursued!  If a gentleman isn't putting fourth effort to get to know you, he's probably just not that into you.  And that's ok!  There are thousands of other young men in this world who are, and who would be more than willing to treat you like the amazing young woman you are.

I digress.

Ladies, stay classy and fabulous and never settle for less than you deserve.

Tuesday, February 7, 2012


This song always hits home for me.  Beautiful lyrics, and a beautiful message.

"Please lay down your arrows
'Cause they're sure to pierce the skin
And water from a broken well
Will make you thirst again
When all things you've acquired
Are tested by the flames
And you can see them melting
Then will you call His name?

And it's worth it brothers
And it's worth it friends
To know your maker
To lose your sin
Did you know that you are dearly loved?

To the slaughter you are being led
Being told that it's a party
That this God is in your head
And every single lie
Sounds just like the greatest truth
But the one truth you're not hearing
Is that He died for you

And it's worth it brothers
And it's worth it friends
To know your maker
To lose your sin
Did you know that you are dearly loved?

No greater joy
No greater peace
No greater love than this

No greater joy
No greater peace
No greater love

And it's worth it brothers
And it's worth it friends
To know your Maker
To lose your sin
Did you know that you are dearly loved?

And it's worth it brothers
And it's worth it friends
To know your Maker
To lose your sin
Did you know that you are dearly loved?"

We are dearly loved.  By so many people.  Why is it so hard to see it sometimes?  I feel like sometimes I get trapped in the constraints of society and focus on everything I'm "not" or every "mistake" I've made.  Sometime I feel like guilt is running my life instead of me.

But why?!  Every decision I've make in my life brought me to where I am today.  Every choice I made was a lesson, positive or negative.  Live with no regrets.  You're beautiful, just the way you are.

Strive for improvement but cherish your mistakes.  They're what makes you, you.  And you, are the perfect you.

Wednesday, February 1, 2012

Where is the

Where is the loveee the loveee the loveee.

Wednesday... Friday where are you?